MuSiC oF mY LiFe

~~Thursday, February 28, 2008~~

I am touched by someone today.

Dreaded to go to practice and it was for small grp pract. From noon till night. Nv tot it would be productive. Decided to head for dinner with some others, when a phonecall came to my pres. As nonchalant as i was, i heard a name and my heart skipped a beat - Alex. I was shocked.

He was coming.

I couldn't believe my ears and i have mixed tots. My pres was told Alex is here to listen to our pract, listen how my previous instructor conduct, and if he can, he will help us. We are such pathetic fools.

I was told he would arrive at night. And we hastily changed our small grp pract to MAIN grp pract and i made my very best to give the due respect Alex shld have. I demanded drinks and proper attendance suddenly. Ha. Such impact and change when its someone worthy of ur effort.

I tot he would arrive at 8+ with that instructor of mine. But no! I receive a phonecall at 7pm sharp. He has arrived. 7pm sharp, cos he heard our pract starts that time. How cool is that. He is that punctual. I stepped into the room slowly..packing up the mess while he talks to my pres. I saw him from afar, i just cant believe my eyes. Suddenly, he called out to me. I was shocked he remembered me. My name and all. Asking of life and all. Its was a wonderful feeling to see an old fren again...

I apologised to him. For many reasons that flooded my head. I said sorry, cos' he had to find his way to our music room when our darn instructor just throw him an address and made him find his way to our room, himself. I said sorry, cos' he had to climb the darn high hill and stairs cos the place is so inaccessible. I said sorry, cos' its unfair for him, to ask him to conduct another conductor's piece of music only when tt conductor cant make it. I said sorry, cos' as if making use of him is not enough, he was only given 2 wks from the concert to make this whole thing work. I said sorry, cos'...he agreed to help, without hesitation, after he realise, we wanna make this concert come true...and he didn't wanna let it fall..he didn't wanna let us fall...

I salute him, for his willingness tp help, for his integrity, for his love for music, for his character, for his generosity, for his passion to teach students, for his heart for all..

He came for the 1st time, to listen to us play. However, his passion to teach and make us better, gave him the strength to decide to conduct us for the 1st time today. The feeling was undescribable. I nv once whine at his lame jokes, nor his off-timing at times, or his advises. I listened attentively, digesting every word and treasuring his every teaching. In fact, i really appreciate him here. My frens noticed the difference.

End of pract, he came over to talk abit more. Telling about how his health has been. His shrunken built and weaker body just makes its more hurting to see him here cos' it meant so much more now. I would like to invite him to watch the concert, not watch him help. All i can say is, thanks Mr. Alex. Having u here is really a nice surprise. Attending ur ensemble practice gave me a nice feeling at pract again. I miss the old times, both good times and the bad.

Thank you Mr. Alex Abisheganaden.

There are even more changes and hiccups in the preparation for the concert. I duno why. Perhaps its not meant to easy from the start...But...i believe i will try my best to pull through. 2 wks to concert.

1:12 AM